(L-R) Cameron Mathison; a picture of his California home.Photo:Kathy Hutchins via ZUMA Press/Shutterstock; Cameron Mathison/Instagram
Kathy Hutchins via ZUMA Press/Shutterstock; Cameron Mathison/Instagram
Cameron Mathisonis opening up about his massive loss from the L.A. fires.
TheAll My Childrenalum, 55, spoke withEntertainment Tonighton Wednesday, Jan. 9, explaining how he and his family escaped from The Eaton Fire, which burned their home earlier this week. When they were forced to evacuate, he said he “didn’t really believe” they would lose everything, so he only took passports, birth certificates and a few photo albums.
“I unfortunately left some valuable ones where the kids were very, very young and film that you can’t replace," he said, adding, “If I really thought the house was going down, I would’ve grabbed so much more.”
(L-R) Cameron Mathison, Lucas Mathison and Leila Mathison.Cameron Mathison/Instagram
Cameron Mathison/Instagram
“I just was sitting there, it was probably 6 in the morning, and I had to go up there,” he continued, saying he bought a mask and protective glasses before going into his neighborhood. “It looked like a war zone.”
Although he had some “hope” that their house would be okay, he quickly realized it wasn’t.
“It was all gone,” he revealed. “It was really, really decimated. There’s nothing there. Less than nothing. It’s just all burnt to just ashes.”
(L-R) Cameron Mathison; his California home.Presley Ann/Shutterstock; Cameron Mathison/Instagram
Presley Ann/Shutterstock; Cameron Mathison/Instagram
The actor later toldGood Morning Americaon Jan. 9 that he was thankful to have gotten anything out of the home, but knowing there is nothing left of it is hard to cope with.
“I’ve been up all night. I can’t sleep. I’ve lost my home and everything that I own,” he said. “I have this hoodie and a pair of pants and two pairs of sneakers left. That’s it.”
“Every few minutes we’re thinking about things that were in there that are irreplaceable, but there are a lot of things that are replaceable,” he added.
He had toldETthat the home was somewhere hisdaughter Lelia, 18, and son Lucas, 21always thought they’d be able to go back to, noting it was custom-built just for them.
“We spent over a decade doing every detail of that house,” he explained tearfully. “It was something that the kids loved, it was where the kids wanted to raise their kids. I keep coming back to that we’re all safe. It’s so devastating and when you’re in shock like this, it’s kinda hard to think clearly, to be honest.”
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Mathisonshared imagesof the charred remains of the home on his Instagram on Wednesday, Jan. 8, giving a tour of the grounds when he returned for the first time since evacuating.
“We are safe. But this is what’s left of our beautiful home,” he wrote alongside the video. “Our home where our kids were raised and where they wanted to raise their own someday.”
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source: people.com